When we arrived on Sunday, August 23rd the
Leadership retreat felt like years away. Of course it was only next weekend,
but we had so much time to prepare during the week.
It was a whirlwind.
We had our first retreat planning on Monday afternoon. I don’t think any of expected to have
everything happen so fast. But we planned. And we prayed. And we hoped
everything would work out.
I’m pretty sure we all felt worried about the retreat. But I
was very worried. I was worried that I didn’t know my part well enough, that I
would stumble and fall. I was worried that God wouldn’t use my story or me in
the way we had talked during planning. I was worried that I couldn’t be used in
this community.
I became so worried right before the retreat but was able to
become calm as the team ate dinner together, and teens began to arrive.
My piece on how communication is important to being a leader
was on the first night. As I walked up with my partner for the module, I said a
quick prayer that I would be at ease, that I would be able to carry out his
will.
And He was faithful. Tim and I were able to run through our
module and explain why communication can be difficult and what we can do to be
better communicators. Then came my witness talk. I felt confident. So I began
confidently. Half way through I was overcome with emotion. I guess it had hit
me. That moment when you realize how powerful God’s grace has been in your
life. I was choked up and I knew if I tried to speak I would begin balling in
front of this group of 35 people. So I took a moment, collected myself, and let
the tears come, calmly. I finished my witness and felt as though I had shared a
deep part of myself with the group. And I did do that. But I didn’t expect to
receive affirmation and encouragement from my peers and the teens afterwards.
They were grateful, and through that I began to see how He could use me in this
community. Coming to CYFM on August 23rd, I didn’t expect to share a
part of my story in such an intimate way so soon. But, it was His will and He
was faithful.
Although the first night of the retreat was most powerful
for me, I felt his grace throughout the weekend. I felt his grace through the
mass, our Saturday night prayer service, and through a few teens that He used
to touch my heart.
This is an incredible ministry that I feel so blessed to be
a part of. Thank you, CYFM for welcoming the CCVs into your community so
lovingly. See you all on Friday!
With Love,
Mary
There is nothing more powerful than witnessing an unexpected spontaneous sharing of God's power. It frees something inside both the speaker and the listener.
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